Well I finally got my wish of another baby but I kinda wish I waited now I love my daughter and I'm glad I had her but it is soo much harder with two only 20 months apart one needs to constantly eat while the other wants to play. I can't take Raelynn outside because she is too young for sunscreen plus it is Hott outside like 90 plus.And now work wants me to come back a day sooner which means I need to sleep but I can't my head is still hurting from last night. Well I guess it's for the best it will mean over time or an extra day I can't remember when they pay period cut off is. I'm trying to be super mom but it breaks my heart to leave my daughter at night because now I feel like both kids won't know me.
When I was pregnant working third I barely saw Bruce I was exhausted I barely spent time with him and it's probably the reason why he has a speech delay :(. I want the best for my kids and I don't think it's me but I can't change that fact I just wish I had more stamina and not being over weight might help but I don't have time to work on myself my kids come first and always will
